And no, that doesn’t mean you are going to cash in on the Lotto Max and get that shiny new mustang – unless of course, that is part of your life’s Divine purpose.
You can live to your life’s purpose. But you have to give up one thing, and it’s not going to be easy. In fact, it’s much like losing a limb.
You have to give up…
I’ll be the first to say that I spent the bulk of my life doing things that made my ego feel larger than life. I grew up shy, awkward, self-conscious and somewhat of an ‘outsider’ from my peers. When I got older, I gravitated towards things that gave my ego a boost and afforded me the attention I lacked in my childhood. Whether it was a modeling gig or working in the music and entertainment industry where I spent several years – I put myself in a position where my ego received praise.
I had somehow found a way to do ‘cool’ things – and I relished in the feeling when others would say, “Wow, I can’t believe you got to do that, you’re so lucky”, or “I can’t believe you know that person”, etc.
I enjoyed the validation that finally I was ‘something’. It made me feel good about ‘myself’.
In no time flat, I even created my own successful blog that had nothing to do with ‘me’ and my only focus was blindly criticizing others I didn’t know, even though I was not conscious of it at the time… but in my head it was justified because I didn’t use their photos or real names. But, my ego enjoyed the audience and it kept me moving.
It wasn’t until I found myself in a place of ultimate discomfort… Rather than praise; I was receiving criticism from people who didn’t know anything about ‘me’. That was the precise moment; I realized I really didn’t know ‘me’, either. That is when I had to look deeper. I knew my traits and other quirks… but who was I? Who AM I?
I had to wake up. I needed answers and the only place they were, were within.
It was then that it had hit me that I had spent the last 28 years living in the shadow of my ego. Not only that – I had to realize that I had become my own hypocrite, doing the very same thing. Whether it was in the form of a blog, or engaging in some sort of gossip – celebrity or otherwise – I had formed opinions on people I did not know.
Once again, it was a form of validation. It took attention away from my any kind of focus on my own transgressions.
Some would say it is human nature. But is it?
We were not born with these abilities. They are learned.
Most people would say, “But I don’t have an ego.” or “I’ve never had a big ego”.
That’s not true.
An ego is not strictly associated with bragging rights.
When you feel fear, uncertainty, when you find reasons that you can not reach your potential, or when you pass judgments on another – that is your ego speaking. And by living from the ego we inadvertently create blockages to that which is our true purpose.
For when you strip away the ego – you are left with a body and a soul. And that is what we ALL are. The soul knows only love and compassion, as that is what it is comprised of. The soul does not have the ability to judge, nor does it care which celebrity got engaged or who got divorced. The soul knows that we are all connected and all of pure equality. Inequality is merely an illusion and the only thing that separates us and creates the illusion is the ego itself and its own desire for power.
Dismantling the ego is not an easy process. In fact, it can be excruciating. It’s like slowly ripping off a band-aid. And just when you think the wound has been healed – there it is, infected again. It can creep up on you and fill you with fear, criticism and self doubt when you least expect it. It is likely even harder now than ever, especially when social media is largely comprised of so much ego and so little truth.
Not to mention, there are an array of emotions you go through when you realize your ego is dying off – as well as a number of physical symptoms, which needs its own article all in itself. This is because we have been conditioned to and attached to it for as long as we can remember. You have to consistently remember how to operate without it. You also have to learn how to be around others that still have their limb intact. You have to learn how to function all over again. And you have to allow yourself to see the world with new eyes – essentially the same eyes that you were given at birth.
Now why would anyone want to feel like a part of them is dying? Sounds ridiculous, right?
It is when you begin to dismantle the ego that you enter a state of peace. Picture a tornado… what if you had to be a part of it? Would you want caught up in the chaos and floating in the debris? Or would you want to be centered in the still point?
When you detach the ego, there is no criticism and there is no fear, there is only a living in the now – and a deep-rooted knowingness that all is happening in its precise right moment.
When your ego no longer runs the show, you become your truest self.
Without the ego blocking you, you allow more into your life. This is when you open all the doors that were inadvertently blocked and allow your Divine purpose to take shape.
This is when you enter into the ‘flow’ of life and this is when the miracles begin to happen. Synchronicities take place and create the opportunities you need that are aligned with your purpose. This is when things that your ego told you would never happen begin to come to fruition. This is when you see things that you never thought you would, because you were living in a shadow.
And that is when your truest desires begin to manifest into form. This is one, I could write a book about.
It is not until you let go of the ego that you can truly live… And then life happens.